| entry #507 |
[14 Feb 2007|05:34pm] |
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i know that i'm ridiculous, and a baby and that i take things too seriously and that i let little things bother me too much, and that i'm too defensive. i know all this. i wish i wasnt that way, but thats just the way i am, as unfortunate as that may be.
the thing that i've been trying to remember is that no matter how much you want something to happen or change or become something, sometimes it just never will. no matter how much you wish it or think it or pray for it, sometimes you just have to settle for what you've got.
and let me tell you something, settling is the absolute worst thing you can ever do, it will never feel right, it will never make you happy. you will always wish you had what you wanted, not what you have simply because you can have it.
i'm not really sad, i'm just so disapointed in what i've allowed myself to become and to be a part of. i know that the only person who can make me feel like this is myself, but who will help me feel something else?
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